Today has been pretty unproductive...Marlie seemed really tired this afternoon so I "made" her take a nap and William wouldn't take one (which is always fun). After that I really needed to get out of this apartment but didn't have time to do the shopping I wanted to do. It was a BEAUTIFUL day so guilt got the best of me and I decided to take the kids to the park since they hadn't been out all day. I met a girl there that didn't look like "my type" if you'll forgive me for saying so. Just didn't look like someone I'd have much in common with. Our kids played well together and we chit chatted quite a while. I decided to go out on a limb and give her my phone number and email address and turns out she lives in the apartments right next door. Well, then I had a spititual moment. Maybe the Holy Spirit was convicting me. But it hit me like a ton of cement: My focus since we've been here has been totally selfish. I am so lonely. What can others do for me to make me feel more "plugged in "? What can churches do for me to make me feel part of their family? And on and on.
Well, here's the lesson. This girl I met is a military wife who has been here 7 months and said she hasn't met anyone. Maybe I was sent here to help others! There's a novel idea! I'm not the only one here; and certainly I'm not the only lonely person in this town. As Janet Ellis always says in her class "It's not about me". God forgive me for making this trip all about me and not how I can serve others. It's amazing how much better it can make you feel to switch your focus.
Serve on !!!
